Elendir Montague

Well, I'm back. I must say I'm a little surprised by how many people are back and sadly not surprised how many are missing I'm glad to see that you all are here. It's odd how I was only gone for a few months, and yet it seems as if so much has changed. I'm not used to so much change in so little time.

On a different note, I've decided to step down from TFU. I wanted to close it, but that didn't go so well. So, if anyone has any questions about the club, I am no longer the person to ask. It turns out I wasn't made out to be a leader especially when so many ended up dead.

I hope everyone had a lovely break, and is glad to be back home in school.

{Private to James}
I think I missed you the most of all. How are you doing, lovey?
{/private}

( Private to self )

I know everyone is upset about Viktor being dead, but being upset isn't going to do anything to honor his memory. Viktor wouldn't want us to sit around and cry over him. He wouldn't really want any attention at all, he wasn't the type to like things to be about him. I know he wouldn't like us all to be sad.

Maybe we could have a memorial service in his honor? We could all talk about all the things Viktor has done for us, and maybe that way it won't be so horrible.

I don't know, it's just an idea.

I don't understand.

It's a new year and that means it's time for new beginnings. That's what I love about the start of a new year, it's like a blank slate that you can write whatever you wish on.

I'll be staying in my room over the weekend, I have homework that somehow piled up on me.

Well, that not exactly a good way to start of the new year, is it? But at least they weren't expelled just suspended for a while. They'll be back before we know it.

{Private to self}
I can't believe Kaevan got suspended! This is all Leon's fault, he's always been a trouble maker, first with Dylan and lately with Alec. He's always fighting for no good reason, and I'm not surprised that he finally is getting punished for it. I just wish that Kae didn't get roped into it as well.

I do not like Leon. It's okay for me not to like people, I can't like everyone. I'm not perfect. I do not like Leon.

{/private}

I'm about to head home for break, but I just wanted t say thank you for all the lovely presents. Thank you so much, I loved all of them. James, your card was my favorite gift. Thank you for making it for me, I loved it.

I hope everyone has a good break and a happy new year.

Oh, and Logan, thank you so much for my necklace. It is the prettiest thing I've seen in a long time, I'm wearing it now. I'm so glad we met.

What is wrong with you people? Clearly that wasn't Dafne, she would NEVER do anything like that. Anyone who believed that was really her needs to reexamine themselves because it sounded NOTHING like her.

And, can I just say that Cid isn't a person I would trust as far as I could throw him? In fact, I bet I could throw him farther than I trust him.

Dafne has done nothing wrong and you should all be ashamed of yourselves for treating her as if she has.

{Private to Dafne}
I am so sorry, don't worry, you have me on your side no matter what happens. I know I'm not really the one you want to hear that from, I'm sure he'll come around. And if Nathan believes that is you, he never deserved you.

TFU meeting tonight at seven. We'll be meeting in the Zebul common room as usual. Everyone who can find the time to come is invited, we might end earlier than normal because Finals are starting tomorrow.

Since the last meeting of TFU had to be canceled, we're going to double up these next two weeks. So, this Monday and the next Monday we will be meeting in the Zebul common room as per normal. I really hope that everyone that has a chance to come drops by. Except Salvatore Agliardi, he is not wanted. Even if you can't stay for the entire meeting.


EDITED {Private to Rocky]

That is okay with you, isn't it? I'm so sorry I forgot to check with you first.

{/private}

((ooc: Lendie got carried away and forgot to talk to her VP about the double meeting and then remembered she should probably talk with him a few minutes after she posted her entry.))

Something is very wrong.

I haven't been feeling well all day, but I thought it was just that cold that's going around. I figured that Alec must have caught it too, because he wasn't in class. So I went down to his room during lunch to check up on him, only to find him passed out on the floor of his dorm. I was terrified, and hurried over to make sure he wasn't horribly injured, only to notice that I was looking up at him.

It is not normal to look up at a prone body that is lying on the ground, in case you were wondering.

After I calmed down a bit, everything was back to normal and I got Alec off to the hospital wing. I thought for sure that I had just had some sort of fear induced panic attack but ever since then, every time I get surprised or scared, I turn into a mouse.

It is not normal for me to be a mouse. Although I think it might end up helping TFU, which can only be a good thing.

I am very concerned.

{Private}

How can this be real? I can't believe this is really happening. Jason was a good person, he deserved so much more than this. I don't know how to make this better. I don't know if it can be made better. Jason is dead.

Maybe Alec and Dylan were right about TFU. Maybe there isn't any hope for Therians and Faie to ever get along on a mass scale. I can't help but feel like we're fighting for people who don't want to be fought for. I don't know what to do.

{/private}

{Private to Alec}

I'm scared.

I don't understand why anyone would kill Alrick, but I don't think that the man that killed him should be killed. He should be punished, but I don't see why he couldn't live out his life in prison.

Killing him doesn't bring back my cousin, and it hurts his family.

I wish that people could realize that we're all the same, in the end. We all love, we all have family, and one day we'll all die. I just don't think that anyone should get to choose when a person is to die for them.

My thoughts are for Carlo Rossi's friends and family. And for Carlo himself, I'm sure this isn't how he thought he would end his life.

I can't believe he's dead. This can't be real.

I don't have anything else to say about the bombing. It was a terrible accident, but we have no proof as to who did it. So we should all stop pointing fingers and work together to help the people who have been injured by the bombing.

On a different note, the play was amazing. Everyone handled their roles perfectly and it was just lovely to watch.

Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROCKY!

I'm sorry that I've been hiding away for so long. I had some things happen and I've not really wanted to come out of my room. But I'm fine now, and I'm ready to be around people again.

{Warded against anyone who isn't for TFU}
I'm starting to run out of ideas for things to do with TFU, does anyone have any thoughts?
{/ward}

{Private to Viktor}
Alec is going to drink himself to death soon if someone doesn't do something. Please try to talk to him. I would, but I'm the reason he's doing it he isn't talking to me he hates me you're his best friend.

Please?

Things have been insane lately, I can't believe all the fighting that's been going on. Isn't there better ways to work out problems? That doesn't involve beating each other into a pulp? I know things have been stressful lately, but I think that we should at least try to get along.

But I'm apparently the only one who thinks that.

I can't believe it's Friday already. This week went by so fast, I almost feel like it never happened. I have a big project due in history, so I've been working like crazy on that. Sorry I've been missing. But it's done now, so I can now rejoin the living. How has everyone been? Wonderful, I hope.

Oh, Kaevan and I have been talking, and his Uncle was kind enough to say we could use his house as a place to throw a sort of ball/dance thing for TFU. I don't know what everyone would think about that, so feel free to say whatever you wish about it. I think that it would be best to not do it for a while, that way we can all finish mourning and also have time to plan it out so it'll be the best it can be. So, comments, questions, and thoughts?

{Private to Elias}
Hi! I'm Lendie, and I'm a friend of Evie's. She told me all about you and I would love to meet you if you wouldn't mind? It's just, she said such nice things about you and I would like to get to know you.

So, the fair was fun. Rocky and I went on the Ferris Wheel, its always amazing how different everything looks from up high. You can see everything, but it's tiny. Sometimes I wonder if that's how it is for God, if there even is a God. If He can see everything, but it's all to small to really be able to make anything out of it.

A few journals ago I said some horrible things, and I know now that they weren't true. So I just wanted to apologize for speaking before I thought things over.

Tomorrow is the last day of Founders Weekend. It has been strange slightly horrible nice having my parents here, but it'll be good to get back to normal.